Saturday, March 31, 2012
1st grey hairs
I noticed my first grey hairs today............and, I am not upset. Instead I thought to myself, I earned these bad boys! To me they are signs of accomplishment. I am not a kid anymore (sure, I know that has been true for a while, but sometimes you just get those moments the snap you back into reality). Instead of being a kid, I have one! I don't just have a job, I have a career. I don't just have a house, I have a home. I am not just married, I have a family. Someone just recently asked me how old I was, and for a second, I couldn't remember. I have been through all the milestones so far in my life that I pictured growing up to do. I have been to college and turned 21. I got my first job and first out of college apartment, and then first house. I turned 25. I got married. I got promoted. I joined a wonderful church family. I turned 30. I celebrated 5 years of marriage to my best friend. I gave birth to an amazing and beautiful little girl! I got promoted again. And now life has started to just go by. Sometimes fast, sometimes in slow motion. I feel content. I feel stressed. I feel happy. I feel overwhelmed. I feel love. So, now I ask myself, now what? For once I am excited to just see where life takes me. To see what God has in store for me. To raise my child and watch her reach all her milestones. But, I also feel tired. All.The.Time! There are so many things I want to do, but don't. Life with a toddler, I know, I know. I recently visited my grandmother. She is almost 94 years old. And I realized, you are just getting ready to turn 33..... you have plenty of time to do so many more things. But then I also think, do I? I want to live each day to the fullest with no regrets, because I know only God knows my last day. I pray I have many more on this earth to do good things for others and myself. So many things to still experience and learn. So many things to now teach. So, after a quiet Saturday with my daughter......eating breakfast, shopping, napping, taking a walk, playing with toys.....I feel humbled.