Reality TV

I used to make fun of it, and vowed never to watch it, but now I am hooked on just about every reality show. Tonight is another night of "So You Think You Can Dance". I got teary eyed watching it last night! However, I could do without the judge, Mary. Her voice is like nails on a chalk board!! I am also hooked on "The Bachelorette", and can't wait to see who Jillian ends up with (akem....REID! - love him!!). And I am already looking forward to the next "Big Brother" coming this summer :)

I was trying to think about why I liked all of these shows. Maybe it is because I am very lucky and live a pretty drama free life, and therefore feed off the drama of others? Or is the nonsense that is comforting after a hard day mentally at work. And of course the "eye candy" isn't too bad either :) (check out some pics of my favorites)









Whatever it is, the networks have a viewer in me! Keep them coming.....

Cancer Sucks

Cancer knows no age......it takes the ones we love, it comes out of the blue, it causes pain, it is scary, and it just plain sucks. I am not saying anything new or anything that anyone else doesn't already feel. Everyday it seems we all learn about someone who is faced with cancer, or we may be ourselves. Well, last weekend, Brandon and I were faced with the news that a good friend of ours from college has cancer, and he is ONLY 28!! The news is still fairly new as he is still learning the challenges that face him ahead. However, this was the first time I really felt the dagger to my heart of sympathy and pain for him. My grandfather had cancer, but he was older, had lived a full life, and I was too young to really understand. Since then, I have prayed for countless others as they have dealt with cancer themselves, or with a loved one. But, this is the first time that I can say I truly felt the anger. Anger that cancer could attack someone so kind, so young, so full of life and promise. But, this also gives me hope, because I know he can fight, and together with his friends and family's support, I pray we can beat this! It is not going to be easy.....but you have to have hope.....sometimes that is all there is in life.

Wrong side of the bed

I woke up on the wrong side of the bed today (figuratively...not literally)....or in other words, in just a plain BAD mood. So, thought maybe writing about it will make me feel better so that I can go on with my day.

As Brandon keeps teasing me about (since he doesn't turn 30 until August), I am not a spring chicken anymore, and when caffeine never used to affect me and keep me awake it night, it does now. So, my diet pepsi with dinner last night (which happened to be at 8:30pm) didn't allow my eyes to feel tired until midnight....plus I had to finish watching Bachelorette on DVR!! So, no night can start off that good when you know you are only max going to get 6 hrs (I know, I know....all those Moms out there would say 6 is awesome, but this one is milking getting 8 a night still whenever possible!).

As I was trying to close my eyes, my stomach was hurting, and my thoughts kept drifting to a friend who received bad news over the weekend. I must have fallen asleep because that is when the dreams set in.....

As a prenote: Last night Brandon was forewarning me not to take anything personal today at the DMV, because the people there have to deal with so many nut jobs and people who don't speak English, that they tend to loose their personalities. I guess that set me up for my dream......

Of course I can't remember the details and order of the dream, but I was definitely at the DMV trying to renew my license. However, in my dream, you got the card with the information on it first, and then had to make a separate trip to get your picture added on it. I went for the first visit and waited in line, finally got to see someone and they asked me a bunch of questions. I got my new license (without the picture) and headed home. I was kicking myself in my dream (again figuratively and not literally LOL) because I didn't double check that the information on the license was correct before I left. I get home and start looking at it, and realized that instead of my name, they had put some "jibber jabber" that didn't even make sense....something like my name was "XRarnjut Thsamal"....so, knowing I had an appt at 9am to get my picture taken and added to the license (at least my brain knew I had an appt this morning in the real world LOL), I arrived at 8am, which should have been plenty of time for the correction to be made. Well, anyway, as you can imagine, that wasn't the case, and I was told it would be 9 hrs (what is it with the number 9???) for the correction to be made. I threw something at the clerk and said "I have to wait 9 hrs for you to fix something that wasn't my fault!" Yeah, and I never yell at anyone at stores or offices, etc, I usually just grin and bear it. So, I have to wait for a phone call so that someone who can barely speak English can interrogate me as it was somehow my fault that the name was typed in wrong.....

Ok, reading this back, it was crazier in my head than it looks on paper. Anyway, so I wake up after this dream in a BAD mood, and to top it off, Brandon's alarm keeps going off (his alarm really annoys me!!) and he isn't turning it off and getting out of bed (he went to bed late too and is tired), the dog is stretched out under the covers and putting her feet directly into my back, and the cat (who is on a diet and convinced she is starving!!!) is rubbing back and forth on the bedroom door making it creak so that I will get up, plus I have to pee. So, I throw back the covers and say "FINE, I am getting up!!" It really stinks to be a light sleeper!! I feed the cat and go to the bathroom, and found the real cause of my BAD mood....I started! (no worries, don't think any men actually read this blog LOL)

So, now I get to go to the DMV this morning and hope my dream doesn't become reality, head to work where I am sure I will be annoyed by something else, lunch meeting so that I can volunteer some more of my time away, and all the while feeling crampy and bloated.....WONDERFUL!

All this being said, I have to step back and say, it really isn't that bad.....but we all have our days where we think our life is the worst. I have to remind myself that I am very lucky and very blessed. I have my health, my family, my friends, my job and a roof over my head.....which is more than a lot of people can say these days.

Whew.....I already feel better :)

Cramming for my test

Don't ask me why I thought about it, but Brandon and I were driving around on Saturday and I suddenly realized my license expired on my birthday....OOPS! So, tonight I am studying my road signs so that I can pass with flying colors tomorrow when I go to renew. I know I should know them, but it is something about them being taken out of context that I always forget! Makes you want to ride me with me, doesn't it?!? :) On the plus side, I found out today that you can actually make an appointment at the DMV to renew your license. How cool is that!?! So, tomorrow morning, I get to go and jump in front of everyone else already waiting in line and say, "Hey, I have an appointment!" Wish me luck!!